After i logged off i tried to sleep. My bed looked so warm and inviting. Looks can be decieving. Before i enter into that mysterious world of slumber, basically before i fall asleep, i try to think of happy thoughts. of
him. of "love".
Love. what is love?
Dictionary.com Definition
:A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.Who is it that writes these definitions. What do they know? Love is individual. It should not be defined so factually like a simple object or so i am told. And it says towards a person. Animals don't love? Are they heartless? Of course not, they couldn't live with out a heart....
I try to think those happy thoughts. To lull myself to sleep. But just as i get there malignant, gealous thoughts currupt my happiness and carry on forever. No they are not always gealous thoughts. sometimes happiness still exists when these thoughts, ideas enter. I will not lie. Sometimes the thoughts are as pointless as this blog...
Or as pointless as the word "Blog" itself. Blog...where does that word come from? B-L-O-G.....Blog such a dumb word, fun to say though. Actually when you think of it how was any word made....like the word word, where did word come from? Who thought of it? Who has the power to decide what names should go with what?...
My mind is consistently occupied. I hope it will let go soon. But it is getting light out so chances are no.
Tonights blogs have been strange. Different from my usual cup of tea. But not agonizing to read. Not like the sound of our directors voice. hell. good morning. O joy. It's a school day. That is what Troy calls them, the days that involve going to school. but i don't know who Troy is. I feel like Denny's breakfast. I would give the waitress a cheesy smile and say i want a cup full of steeped slumber. 1 sugar 2 creme. too much sugar makes it taste false but i love those creamy calories. Fuck you Atkins Man. Slumber=sleep. That is what i need. Should i leave the computer? Or sleep on the key board. turn my back on those readers who all probably quit reading by now. Liz out.